Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Human stains and all their sins

Humanity is such filth. Every "good" person is only putting up a facade,  and in the most extreme of situations, everyone would show their true nature as a selfish coward. It fills me with such disgust--it leaves me depressed knowing that I am one among a society that breeds such self-centered scum--that I am one of the weak pieces of shit--and the lowest of the non-criminal society, at that.
Everyone is filled with evil, whether it be selfish evil or true malice, it will corrupt even the strongest of hearts if pushed far enough.
Are there any people that can suppress their own instincts and become true heroes? Or is humanity really inherently rotten?

My mind always brings me back to cases like the Donner Party or fiction like Lord of the Flies--the most desperate of situations. Could anyone not be evil--not follow their truest, base, animalistic instincts in such extreme situations?

I'd like to think that I'll become morally strong and suppress the monster hidden within me. Then, I get an insatiable urge to masturbate--I cannot even control my goddamn lust. How could I be stronger in even more intense situations, when more intense instincts such as hunger and overall survival kick in, if I can't repress my lust?

Friday, September 8, 2017

Does "immorality" lead to greater happiness?

Go to school and don’t do work, or do work yet don’t go to school; which to you think the people running the school system would prefer? Don’t give me “Go to school and do work”—obviously, that’s the ideal, but out of the two former options, what is preferred?
Going to school and not doing work—that is what is preferred. Why, and how, do I know this? Well, because I’ve missed school consistently since 3rd grade. My 4th, 5th, 7th, and 8th grade teachers did not like me, at all—by high school, I had so many teachers that I cannot recall which ones did or didn’t like me—I think they were mostly neutral.
I had the top grades until 8th grade when I decided to give up—but that’s the thing: I did my work, and my grades showed it, so why did my teachers not like me? It was because I was absent, and I got my mom to lie for me and to call me in sick. It’s complicated to explain why I did this—it was a mixture of severe social anxiety, cowardice, slothfulness, and, later, severe depression. However, I noticed something whenever I went back to school: the teachers, and the students, had bonded with one another. The troublemakers who didn’t do any work were even liked by the teachers—perhaps even more so than the hard-workers who showed up every day, because there’s a mischievous side in most humans (remember: teachers are humans, too), and the troublemakers were very social and funny.
When I showed up to school, I was very obedient, hard-working, polite and respectful, yet they did not like me. I wasn’t funny, wasn’t witty—even though I missed more than average, they could still get to know me if they tried, but I didn’t let them get to know my true self, because I tried to be moral. I tried to be polite, and hardworking. Perhaps my absences gave my entire case an air of superficialness? But it has caused me to ponder: were I troublemaking, were I funny and witty and offensive and mischievous, yet I wasn’t hardworking but I seeked pleasure and made others feel pleasure—even though on the surface, that pleasure is ‘taboo’—would I be more popular, more beloved, and, overall, would I be happy...?

Sex: Don't do what 'feels' right. Do what's morally right.

Something about sex and the horniness of individuals truly disgusts me.
When I was a child, the beautiful, fairy-tale-esque idea of monogamous romance between a man and a woman always made my heart fill with a warmth that was the best feeling in the world—that is, until I had my first orgasm in sixth or seventh grade. Ever since, I hardly went a day without masturbating, hardly went a day without downloading sexy, erotic, and vulgar images of the most arousing women degrading themselves or being degraded by other men (or by other women) onto my game consoles and my laptop and phone.
No longer did I think of pure, monogamous romance to be my ideal—of a friend-for-life, a partner of the opposite gender to be there with me through thick and thin, and in turn, I’d be there for her…
Now, it was all about the sexual attraction, about wanting to run my hands up and down her body, ejaculate on every body part of hers, and degrading her last essence of innocence. I felt intense lust every single minute of every single day, and I confused that for love. I lusted after many women, and the idea of a polygamous harem relationship with daily orgies was the heaven I aspired to have.
I no longer viewed women as delicate flowers—as people. No, I viewed them as fuckmeat. I viewed them in the most base, instinctual, animalistic ways possible—arguably, the most ‘natural’ way possible. And I still have those urges to view women in that way, every single day. And I indulge in those fantasies. When it comes to my natural sexual urges, I am nothing more than a beast. No different than a horny dog.
This is how modern society wants it to be. Sexuality is widely accepted as being one of the biggest parts of one’s identity. The LGBT community’s biggest selling point is that “Love wins”. Yet, when they talk about ‘love’, that isn’t what they’re really referring to. They’re referring to lust.
The modern world has replaced romance with debauchery, and they claim that their lust is ‘only human’. And so, they give into their instincts and act as nothing more than apes. It isn’t ‘human’. It’s weak. Every animal in the world has sex. Not every animal can stay loyal to one partner. Not every animal can love. How about we, as humans, the most advanced species in the world, stop acting like animals, and instead rise above our instincts? Let’s not throw away traditional morality—let’s be strong and embrace it. Repress our base urges and stay loyal to the one you love most. You’ll have a life companion, and you’ll both be happier for it.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Differences in males and females still run their course in a society where women have as much equal opportunity as men; defiance towards those differences lead to unhappy women

These comments can be found on this video featuring the brilliant Dr. Jordan B. Peterson:

Alfredo Rafael Habersham Pabon's comment:
"The reason men work these insane hours is because (unlike women) making more money (acquiring more resources) is the way we males ascend in the dominance hierarchy, and appear more attractive to women. On the other hand, a woman working more hours (thus, making more money) have zero impact on how desirable she comes across for men. This also explain why gyms, yoga courses and aerobic classes are full of women, and not many men: Whereas (evolutionary speaking) males are valued as protectors and providers, women are valued in relation to their physical attractiveness, which is nothing but a marker of their reproductive fitness."

Jay Theyme's comment:
"[...] Its definitely true that men who earn money are more attractive to women. Women who earn (or don't earn) well; it really doesn't make a difference to men. They want to see how fit and sexy she is and they don't care if she's an undertaker or a CEO."

What all of this comes down to? Despite how feminists want to destroy the 'social construction' of masculinity and femininity by having women be strong and independent with careers, the nature of femininity still plays its role. Women, in the end, still want families, and prioritize families above all else. The vast majority of women are not cut out for these positions of power--and when they aren't in those positions of power, they are happier. Because women are innately maternal.
When the family is ripped away from a woman, they become less and less happy. And it has really begun to show.

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Sex is natural. Giving into lust is weak.

Sex. Perhaps the most thought of, most sought after, and most disgraced act in existence.
People often compare it to food, as just another human need, and yet, sex isn’t truly a necessity; the only time sex is necessary is to repopulate, which isn’t an issue in modern times.

So then, what’s my issue of casual, consensual sex? It is arguably the greatest experience in the world—arguably, better than love itself, because to some, ‘love’ is just a way to get sex.
This over-sexualized society of which believes that casual sex is a human need is overly and overtly dependent on sex; one could even say that the majority of people are slaves to their lust.
In a free society like the modern West, close to, if not the majority of people commit adultery due to the common nature of casual sex; hell, cheating can even be considered normal for a relationship. People are sexually promiscuous; both men and women alike. It is strange for anyone under twenty to be a virgin. People are screwing like crazy, with people they do not love. And so, when they do settle down with a mate, they end up cheating. They cannot help it. They've been doing it all their life, after all. They are a slave to their lust.
If the other partner isn’t cheating, they feel rightfully betrayed. Because some people know that sex is a sacred act; it is the act that creates life. And that act should be reserved for a husband and wife to raise mentally healthy children in a loving environment.
Sexually promiscuity isn’t loving; it’s saying that sex is just another casual act that is to be abused. It isn’t special. And when the mother gets pregnant, well, why should the father stick around? He has other females to copulate with. I wish that was sarcasm.

Think of this scenario: your mother, in your childhood, used to cook you your favorite meal every once in a while. Whenever she put that scrumptious meal on your plate, it was a truly special occasion.
Your mother died years ago. You hadn’t tasted that wonderful dish in ages. Thinking of it gives you a warm feeling in your heart; and lo and behold, upon googling it, you find a restaurant nearby that cooks a similar dish. You go there to eat faster than you could blink. You order the dish and savor its taste; not homemade, so the taste isn’t quite as sentimental as mother’s, and yet, it’s good enough. It’s still the best thing you’ve tasted in years.
The next day, you crave for that taste in your mouth again. You want to feel that warmth of your mother’s spirit again. Not able to hold back, you go to the restaurant and order not one, not two, but three of the dishes. You eat all three, enjoying the first two just as much as ever, but by the third one you were getting sort of full and queasy, and to be honest, it just didn’t surprise you, thrill you as much anymore. But still, it was good.
You do that for the next week, and after the seventh day, it’s just another meal to you. Just another habit of which you are used to. It isn’t special. You no longer feel nostalgic, you no longer feel your mother’s warmth.
Replace ‘mother’ with ‘first love’. Replace ‘favorite meal’ with ‘sex’. Sure, you never tire of having sex, but you never tire of your favorite meal. It just doesn’t have that spark. And so you have to adopt new, dirtier kinks, have more adventures, expand your selection of sexual partners, and soon enough, sex’s purpose of child-making seems like a burden for what you perceive as nothing more than a necessary pleasure. You won’t feel intimate with anyone during sex, but your partners will feel intimate with you. You won’t care. The orgasm, it’s all that matters. Congrats, you are a slave to your genitals. You are weak, and have disgraced what was truly beautiful: the natural act of sex.

Monday, July 24, 2017

YouTube Comment War: "Femininity is beautiful" derails into "Gender is a social construct"

I wanted to preserve this comment chain from a Pokemon YouTube video just in case my comments or my debater's comments are deleted.
Note: my commentary is exaggerated for comedic effect.

Comment war was generated on this video:

RThor originally posted and pinned this comment on his video:
"Just to be clear, this video isn't an advocacy of feminism; that's not the focus. The point is that some people need to stop looking down on girliness because their distorted perspective makes them unable to observe girly characters properly. In other words, they misunderstand what certain girly characters are about and what they have in store. It's about getting rid of your prejudices so you can understand characters for what they are. Not some preconceived image of them." 100 likes (one of them from me; oh boy, I didn't realize that RThor was actually aligned with Cultural Marxist gender identity drivel...)

HikariJake (me) comments:
"Haha, this video is the OPPOSITE of what feminism preaches! Modern feminism HATES traditional girliness and says that women are "just as strong" as men, and they advocate that men and women are the exact same and should be the exact same, which is simply not true. Thanks for this video, because femininity and purity are being demonized by modern culture." 5 likes

Clara comments in response to me:
"HikariJake you're pushing your own agenda right there just like those feminists"

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

What the hell's the deal with people thinking of being absent from school as morally wrong?

What a rant.

I miss a lot of school; not 2 days a month, not 6 days a month, probably about 10 days a month. I'm a junior in high school and I've stood home the past 8 days in a row now. You know what's preventing me from going back? Truancy tickets, detentions, in-school suspensions, as well as being treated as a freak by all of my "fellow" students. "Why are you absent so much?" Because fuck you, that's why. The real reason is because I don't fucking fit in, I have to put on a facade of politeness and not be myself; if I was myself, it would seem odd as I've been the silent guy all my life so why would I change now? But if I was my honest self, people would still fucking hate me because of my pessimism and hipster beliefs. Fuck all of you students. And fuck all of the "learning" in the classes I have that teach me biased propaganda and useless fucking knowledge.
And don't even get me started on the goddamn police officer and attendance people at school. Those motherfuckers hunt you down and give you all the penalties in the world, and it makes me say "Fuck it, why should I even bother coming back if I'll just be punished for it?"
Lack of attendance is considered more severe than bad grades, even if your grades are good; right now, my grades are shit, but I've been a chronic "truant" throughout my school career, and I used to get some of the best goddamn grades in the class. My diminishing performance has nothing to do with attendance, but everything to do with lack of motivation. I was on the Honor Roll in 7th grade with 50 days of absences, for fuck's sake. And yet, I was still treated as a trouble child, while the guy who talked over the teacher in class and never turned in assignments was fine because he showed up everyday. Apparently, working hard doesn't mean shit as long as you show up, even if when showing up means doing fuck all. Jesus Christ.

Am I a bad person for not going to school? No, I'm a bad person because of my attitude, and it's only gotten worse because of my vile school experiences. There are great "truants" out there, very nice, misunderstood people, but instead you're just going to label them as lazy criminals who deserve to be fined and punished? Fuck you.